I am on a MISSION

yes- nothing big, not going to save the planet or takeover the world.. in fact it sounds a little shallow..

but I Rosie Posy- vow to get FIT and CONFIDENT in this, my 29th year  and to live the life I want to lead :D

I am quite frankly fed up of feeling unworthy, of not having confidence in my achievements and not standing up for myself and for allowing my fears to win. Fear is BORING. Fear is numbing. Fear is a prison cell.

Today was Yom Kippur- day of atonement. I fasted to repent. I also stayed in bed and watched half of series one on Nashville on Amazon Prime too- guess nobody is perfect.

But I've decided that this is the year to make my dreams come true.

Last year was a pretty good year.
I qualified in my profession surviving my final year of training.
I took up running.
I got as thin as I've been in 13 years by getting healthy. I have been doing home workout videos on top of the running and eating better.

I've been on a few dates. I've done a few shows. Written a few songs. Not let the depression bring me down.

There are 6 months until my birthday. I commit to a life of joy and hope and happiness.

Where do I see myself? What's the aim? What do I want?

I want a boyfriend, a lover, a confidant, someone I feel good being with who can support me and who I can support.

I want a fit, healthy, beautiful body- not by society's standards, but by mine- the best that I can be.

I want to write music and perform and learn.

I want to be good at my job, confident in my abilities and growing in my profession.


I went to an inspiring songwriting workshop session the other day. A quote was discussed- Do something today that your future self will be grateful for. I intend to live by that rule.

Slowly but steadily I am moving up to the life I want.

LOVE CONQUERS FEAR
LOVE CONQUERS ALL

xxxxx

And on that note.. I intend to get out of bed to do day 2 of the Jillian Michaels 30 day shred workout :D
Yes.. me with pyjamas and fatigue and painful arms from yesterday's girly pushup attempts.

Its only 20 minutes. Its worth it.  And I've committed to this healthy body. There is no going back now.